who you are is defined by you an your emotions an who you feel that you are. for a long time ive dealt with anxiety an worrying about what people thought of me an always checking to make sure i was in the clear but that never gives you ultimate satisfaction. as a human being we’re entitled to live our lives how we want thats what we were put on earth for…. i feel free now, ive realized that the best way to accept criticism is to not fight it to not worry about it but to ignore it an succeed. im not perfect an ive done some fucked up things in life but i kno enough about a lot of people to kno that my wrongs arent the end of the world, to realize that the world is evolving into a virtual social media an that everyone will always have something to say about something because thats who we are as humans we were given our own opinions for that reason. my family wanted me to keep this baby an at first i felt like i was saving her but ive realized that she’s saved me. its amazing how something so little but so big can have an impact on your life an not even be here yet. ive grown to hate my twitter an my facebook a lot of its my fault because im not the most liked person in the world but im entitled to that because no one knows my complete life story or how i was raised or what made me to be the person that i am but i kno i havent done enough wrong to be nailed to a cross because i kno people way worse than me an they still smile an live in there lies happily every day. ive accepted my wrong now an im just ready to move on an have my baby because im an adult now an i cant let a little comment someone makes phase me, especially when its being said to people i could care less about. i guess thats what maturity really is. Its not being perfect an not making mistakes but making mistakes an not caring what people think but learning from them because your the only one who lives with it.
My grandmother told me once i first got pregnant that you wont be friends with a lot of people, and she never lied. as i grew in my pregnancy i began to mature a lot an realize things. ive recently lost a friend, but i dont feel like i lost it it feels like a release a relieving feeling in a way. i wish it couldve been happened so that the friendship didnt carry on further than its original due date but thats my forgiving ass fault as friends thers a limit to everything you do an that should be done.an as human beings the true feelings always come out whether yu want them to or not especially when the intentions are bad. ive come to a time in my life that i can see the people i need to surround myself with. people who genuinely love me an want the best for. i love my boyfriend a lot despite the things weve been through because im not a saint an neither is he but hes always there no matter what. i cant wait until our baby comes into this world an everything is good because then we’ll be able to start our lives together stress-free an ive officially moved on from my past an is still growing into the woman that i need to become in life… and the laggers will still lag.